MOVED

If you got to this page, it’s been moved to:

 

http://www.santasfallenangel.com

 

That’s right. I’ve got my own page now.

 

Woot!

 

-SFA

Moving sites

As I’ve been trying to make a move from the wordpress.com to something else, I had way too much time looking over options. Not wanting to spend a lot of time managing as well as being scared about security threats and whatnot I’m trying (not I’ve gone to) Rapidpress on name.com. So far I have to say it’s been a pretty up and down experience. I talked to someone about a week ago on the site and he was great. Very knowledgeable and answered everything I thought I needed to know. Today I took the plunge and bought a year, since you can’t buy less or more. I understand that things can take time to switch internetwise but the this time when I called back for help, the woman at name.com didn’t actually help very much. I would think if you are going to answer questions about a wordpress site with rapidpress, the people should know about wordpress. A logic I am trying not to think about. She tells me I should have an email from wordpress with login information. I don’t. The site goes up, the site goes down as DNS servers propagate I’m told by a third support person. As well when I log into my name.com account it shows I bought rapidpress but when I click on it there is a message that pops up “RapidPress product could not be found in this account.” When I ask about this, I’m told that it means things are still happening in the background. I think they should change the message or at least add more information so it makes sense. I’m also wondering if followers and so forth can be moved over. That would suck if they couldn’t. If rapidpress doesn’t work out I don’t know if the site can be moved again. Overall, this isn’t my day. I will try and double post on the regular wordpress as well as santasfallenangel.com, if and when it is up to do so.

-SFA looking for a miracle

imagination

Can the imagination truly be a flight of ideas or is it a byproduct of an experiential base? Where does the idea of a flying car come from if you have no vehicle, chariot or the first ford?

The imagination is sparked by something that causes the leap into a fantastical idea that seems to have no bounds.

As i sit on the airplane and at times gaze out the window (from the aisle) i see the clouds and with a past filled with my experiences i see the rabbits and snakes and mountain tops and other objects my mind shows me as it tries to make sense of what it is beholding.

But can i say that i have imagined something new? I’m reminded of the forefathers of science fiction dreaming up flying cars and teleporters, force shields and ways to control others. It’s not all good. They also extrapolate, probably based on their current politics, a future idea such as becoming dependent on technology or even too integrated with tech and man becoming subservient if not a slave. (Think Dune, Terminator and The Matrix).

These ideas and thoughts of the future can at the same time spur on our drive to invent and develop ways to accomplish these visions and work towards ways to control them and ourselves to hopefully prevent problems. From Jurassic Park, Malcom talks about how the scientists were so eager to do a thing that they forgot if they even should. Hmm… to pull another idea… with great power comes great responsibility. One problem though is in recognizing that what you are working on or made Is a great power. Perhaps an alarmist view but maybe presume that Everything is a great power and work down from there to mitigate any potential negative effects.

In today’s world, i wonder what will come from the Generation Me crowd. How well does the world of instant gratification lend itself to thinking about the future? If one feels they should be entitled to anything and everything, what will spur them on to want the future that they Need to be shaping?

Will we grow into a level of technology that resembles the Borg? A group consciousness that doesn’t need to dream and becomes focused with great drive to accomplish tasks can get a lot done but can you innovate without art? A future extrapolation of the Borg is that once they’ve assimilated everyone and everything there would be no more new ideas. Are they racing towards perfection only to be thwarted by their own present actions? That would be a righteous epic fail.

The acting of writing with only a concept and maybe a few ideas invokes my mind to push its boundary and if i’m lucky, expand it into uncharted territories. The boundary is not smooth but serpentine. It meanders around with some ideas and notions still stuck in the past and others like a spike toward the horizon stretching into infinity to touch an outlier concept.

Lack of sleep is slowing this thought process to a halt and really, the clouds and the ground offer so much more right now. I mean come on. Before i knew what they were, the circle and square patterns you can see on the ground sometimes are fascinating. That could be my cinnamon life being made down there. :)

Alas or finally, it’s time to disengage the brain and let it imagine all the wondrous things it sees before it.

-SFA

Long time no write…

It’s been over a month now since I’ve written online (still writing in my journal) for one main reason.

I’ve been researching self-hosted vs a managed host for wordpress or just staying put. I recognize that I can over research information and this is one of those cases. I’ve had ideas for things I want to write about and while that isn’t an issue, putting media into a post has seemed like it would be tricky to move over to another site.

I’ve been spinning my brain around trying to decide on sites like GoDaddy’s WP managed or webhosting, Rapidpress, Hostgator, bluehost, blah blah blah. So many options, too much opportunity to get bogged down in details and reviews. I’m sure there are staged plus and minus reviews as well as the sites that promote a certain host and they get affiliate credit from links. Many of them do state no bias and disclose they use the host for hosting but with a grain of salt I have to keep that in mind.

At the end of the month what do I have to show…

Nothing really except that I can’t decide if it’s worth it to self-host or managed hosting or stay where I’m at.

I fear/feel I’ll just have to jump feet first before I fully understand what it means to do some of the work on my own. It does seem that if I don’t like the host I’m on, it isn’t THAT hard and crazy to move to someone else. Costwise it isn’t really that much. One less impulse purchase, one less bought meal or whatever and the monthly cost isn’t that much. Even less if you consider the difference between a $3/month plan vs $8/month. It’s just $5. If I just sign up for one year and I change next year without a promo code (like there wouldn’t be any out there), I think most people who are already investing the time/money/energy into this could cough up the $60 extra for a ‘full price’ year of hosting.

As I’m not in this for the money but just to write I have a feeling I’m probably going to go with a managed host, although as I write this I’m debating in my mind about the level of control I could have from a self-hosted.

I’m going to just keep writing and posting, probably not the posts with pics/vids for now as I’m trying to limit my confusion about transferring the site.

In the meantime, and not sure how many responses I might get from this post, anyone with thoughts on who you might be hosting with or advice?

-SFA looking for divine intervention

Milestones

A milestone is a physical marker showing the distance between two points.

It’s also used as a physical marker that can be a reference point.

These physical markers were used in times past to help the romans and other civilizations find their way and guide others.

Nowadays we have those posts on the highways showing… that’s right… the distance between one mile and another. The bigger ones can help you when you need to fill up on gasoline or find a place to crash for the night.

In other parts of life and thinking, milestones are the nonphysical moments in my life. Some are defined by near absolutes like the age of legal drinking. Back in the day it was 18. Then it was 21. Sucked for the people who were drinking at 18 when it went to 21.

With driving, depending on the state the age for your learners permit varies as well as when and how you get your license.

You can finally rent a car somewhere between 21 and 25 depending on who and where you are renting from.

People at different stages define themselves on when they become an adult. Unfortunately some people as children are in situations where they must be the adult to their parent-child. Before a legal number of 18 they must help guide the family, working when they should be playing, comforting a sibling while worrying about the next meal, being the rock for their parent-child when they can’t handle the reality of life.

At 15 or 55, finding that someone you want to be with is a moment that will stay with you. Some people believe in one love, one soulmate without a chance for someone else that special. Others feel one love after another.

The joining of two people is usually spent as a public ceremony that is a milestone for not only the couple but also for the people connected to them. Some people feel the need the meet this milestone and may feel undefined in some aspect of their life. A next stage can be a child. A subsequent unjoining is generally less public but just as defining of a milestone.

You live, you grow older. Family. Children. Children who have children. You wake up one day and find the hair leaving your head and growing out of other places.

Something that started as a job becomes a passion and you’ve defined a career that may span decades of your life.

Achievement after achievement. Failures and losses.

My own life has had its own milestones. Love and loss. The hair loss and hair growing.

Back in the day I once asked someone to spend their life with me. Before that moment she once gave me a blanket. The very first time I met her she was at my door. Somehow, something I never found out, she had heard that I didn’t have a blanket and it was freezing in my room at night. I understand the term ‘love at first sight.’ I felt a connection that was base level. The blanket initially a gift for warmth became a symbol of love. Over time it’s become an object to keep me warm. Scratchy but it does its job. I should say that it did its job. A milestone was made when I accepted it. Another milestone was reached when I realized it was finally time to give it away. I’m not going to throw it away. That would be a waste. And I choose to get rid of it not out of any sense of hate or anger at her betrayal but as a right of passage. An improvement of self that sometimes letting go of the past isn’t a betrayal of memories and what makes me what I am but as a gesture to myself. When I look at it I see a blanket but at times I feel like it’s a tether. I’m hoping it’s a tether that has made me doubt myself. When I donate it I will hope that it be received and used with the same spirit when it was given to me.

It will be interesting to see myself later and wonder if it made any difference to me at all.

In all my life I really can’t think of a time that I’ve felt a milestone moment. I tried to skip every graduation or celebration because they were already in the past and I had something to do in the future. Life has been a series of stepping stones on a journey not mile markers. Maybe this will be a stepping stone on the journey or maybe this will be the first thing I see when I look back on my life. Time will tell.

It’s 2am and I couldn’t sleep. Fatigue can sure bring out the stream of consciousness.

Stick a fork in me, I’m done.

-Santa’s Fallen Angel